So I have been unemployed, again, for almost 2 months. The first month was kind of fun traveling with Roger on snowmobile trips and taking in the rare lunches that are unheard of in summer time because he works from sun up to sun down. But April has been tough. I clean and clean. I send out resumes. I give more stuff to whatever group is calling for donations. I have a load on the porch for tomorrow. I am doing coffee with Michelle in the morning, I tan, I grcoery shop. However, even though it seems like there is a lot to clean, a lot to do, I feel like I am not contributing. I know I am looking, but Roger's season has started and so he is out of the house and now getting too busy for lunches or well tonight maybe dinner.
How do you make yourself feel important? Oh I have managed to lose about 5lbs, so that makes me a little happier, but still about 7 more to go to feel better in my mind. Also getting ready to plan my sister's baby shower. Maybe late summer? She won't be finding out what the baby is for a month or two yet so right now we are just in the planning stage. That will take up a little more time. But let's be honest, if I can pat myself right now, a party I can do! Maybe that will make me feel better and it's for a great cause Michelle's first baby boy! What shall we call him. There is already a Tucker, Bennett, Jonathan, and Garrett. I think you should go traditional. Braxton, or name it after a bird like my nephew did: Falcon. I hope you are picky up on the sarcasim there. Michelle will pick a great name!
So while I know there are plenty of women that do exactly what I do, only they are not looking for work, I still feel like I am not doing enough, like I am not doing anything. Oh more me I know. I have it so rough. I could be Candice with a one way ticket away from my husband to HOT and HUMID Florida...We already talked about it so I can poke her. What were you thinking, and who talked you into that? Either way right now I think I would trade places, well maybe not Florida, its a little too humid there for me......CANCUN is calling my name.
The boys are crazy about the warmer weather. They love to play trucks and they were a little upset that we came right in tonight. I think Bennie either has allergies, or he may be getting sick. He sounded a little stuffy this morning, but tonight he seems fine. Dad promised to watch Alvin and Chipmunks (the Squeakual) and that is what they are doing. I will be starting to make Spagetti for dinner when I am done with this. Oh one thing I forgot, I get to get my nails done Thursday. Thursday is also date night! So there is something to look forward to.
Bennie just threw a ball at Tucker, and I am telling you right now, Tucker's mouth starts when he wakes up and doesn't stop until he goes to sleep. Sometimes you cannot even think. You find yourself yelling his name just to get him to STOP!! AHHHHHH. My mom used to say, You cannot wait for them to start talking, you know you wait for that first word. Then you cannot wait for them to shut up. Bennie only talks when he has something to say. Something brillant and using defiant. Either way its clear as a bell. They are growing quick. I cannot believe I will be the mother of a 5 year old this year. It really ages me. My mom was luckier at my age I was just about to graduate. That would be nice. To be this age and be done.......I know it seems hip to be older parents these days but...I will be 48 when Tucker graduates and 50 when Bennie does, unless they are so brillant that they want to graduate when I am 45, yeah that sounds like a nicer number 45 boys help mommy out there would you?
Anyways. I know this was a needless ramble, but why not right it's Tuesday! No it was not spell checked, but I tried to use words that I knew how to spell.....Off to cook now!!!!
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