Sprout it occurred to Mommy that I started this blog before after your birthday so I thought I might write to you too. I am feeling terribly emotional these days??
So Bennett, also known as "B", Bennie, Hammie, & Sprout. I was not supposed to be pregnant with you I was supposed to get pregnant WITH you. See Mommy could not have babies by herself, she needed a little help from Dr., and then I would have a baby. So Mommy counted, and took temps and kept track of periods and scheduled my dr appt for the 3rd day of my period, which is when you have to go to the Dr to get this baby maker. Well if there is no period there is no 3rd day folks. If you have known me longer than a couple of years or you are related to me, then you have seen me angry. Times that anger by 10 and that is what you had. The month I wanted to get pregnant, we were ready the timing worked out, and no period. Of all the months right. Dr said you know you are probably stressing yourself out, calm down and it will come. So, at someone's consulting I went and took a pregnancy test. I laughed all the way to Target, then I was looking for the cheapest one, so that I could waste as little money as possible.
Oh see you are jumping ahead in the story, don't jump to conclusions....The test read no, and to me it was just another jab in the heart. So fine, I am not pregnant and I am not getting my period. Now what. I have been right as rain since I lost weight, there is no clear reason why it wouldn't be coming. So Dr suggested that I come in for an exam, and then we would force a period.......Fertility and Gyno stuff always sounds so painful and well "forced". I did as I was told, I pee'd in the cup, I undressed, but left on my top, and socks since I get cold real easy. Finally she came in.....Well let's see. Did you take a pregnancy test? Yes, I took the test it came back negative, so this really is not funny. Well let's do the exam. I remembering laying down with the tear running down my face. While laying there the nurse came in and went. OK all done. Carrie you cannot do Clomid again. Why? It worked the first time with Tucker? I do not understand. Well let's see if this will tell us.....looks like from the test, that I cannot give you the meds. You ARE PREGNANT. My immediate response was, "No, I am not." I took a test. No I'm not, I am ?
Well this, what. How on earth did I get pregnant on my own, what did Roger do to me? No. No I was wanting a November baby, everyone has an October baby. Well she said according to this your due date is October 28, 2007. Congrats! I ran home to tell Roger....I could not believe it. I guess this shows, as much as we try to "plan" our lives, God has his own plans. He probably saved me from having twins!
Now we get to the hard part. The dr that we had for Tucker, though I liked her as a person, put my child and possibly me at risk. She knew that I had been losing fluid since 17 weeks with Tucker, but ignored me since she was busy. Tucker's due date was Dec 14 and that was right on the nose, since we know the day we conceived. She knew a week before his due date that he had stopped moving, but she did nothing. We decided to go with another Dr. That is when we found Casey Sprague. The best OB/Gyn in history. We explained our experience with Tucker and I explained no matter Allina's policy I would NOT carry this baby over. I would induce myself, but I would not go over my due date.
Casey watched us closely and in May we found out Gammie had no call in what gender her daughters would have. Happily I announced, it's a BOY!!
Oh, my little Bennie I was so excited. A little brother for Tucker and then I began to dream of the things that you all would do together, and the fishing trips, and all the NFL teams that would have to take you both in order to make a deal!! Now what do we do I thought....A girl name I still had. She was always to have the name "Faith Ann Barbara Bastyr". A boy, whatever will we name you. My favorites were Jack and actually we considered Garrett. I joked with Roger for a while that we should name him Morgan since that is another snow cross racer. No, No, NO to all of them. The only thing I knew was his middle name......Roger. So one day while looking online at baby names I started at A and had gotten to "B", there you were. Bennett. "Little Blessed One". This seemed fitting to me, as God blessed me with you, without even telling me. As soon as I told Daddy the name, he was sold, and so I began speaking to you, Bennett Roger Bastyr. It was perfect. As we went along, the ultrasound pushed your birthday back to October 31. No way I told her. I would not have this baby on Halloween. It was bad enough Tucker was 5 days before Christmas, and I really wanted Tucker to be able to enjoy Halloween.
With all the concerns I had about carrying over, Dr. Sprague agreed to induce us 4 days early on a Friday October 26. This made us feel better. We could plan for someone to watch big brother, and we could be home for Halloween. You know as we checked in at 7am to the maternity ward at Mercy that October 26, we were gitty. You had been quite the wiggle worm in Mommy's belly. I could not wait to meet you, but also to sleep without you jumping around all night. Laboring to full dialation was tough. They gave me drugs real late and it was quite painful. I think that you women that do this naturally are crazy!!! The nurse said we were at 9, that it would be a little longer, as soon as she left the room, I told Daddy, I felt like I needed to go potty. Great timing right. I started to push. The nurse came back in and I explained, but she looked, no still 9. Left again, a few moments later, same feeling, she came back in. I think she got some exercise that night!! There is was 830pm, and she was calling for the doctor, you progress fast at the end. Yeah, that seems to be the trend. Well we can't start pushing he's crowned, wait, the doctor is coming.
I guess the entire Northern Metro was having babies at Mercy that night. Daddy and the doctor joked that us women having babies were like cattle on the farm, he moved from one to the other. Mommy did not see the humor and was not amuzed. 2 Pushes and there you were. 8:38pm, 8lbs 7oz.....You had a full head of black hair, and blue eyes. You were still wiggly, and a little yellow(mom did not notice). Yes you had a mild case of Jaundice. And boy were you fussy. Nothing consoled you. I nursed you almost 24hrs straight, finally I had them give you a Nuk and take you to the nursery so that Mommy could get a little rest!!
You were the most perfect baby, I was so excited to see you. I loved you instantly and found myself alone with you a lot, since Daddy was with Tucker. I was just you and me babe! I remember when Tucker came to see you for the first time. He was taken with you. Baby. baby....He loved you the moment he saw you. Then he played in the closet.
Bennie, it was amazing to watch you grow and compare you to Tucker. We figured we had this baby thing down since we already had one. You were 360 degrees different than Tucker. You ate every 1-1/2 hours, you slept a lot, but not in bed, you preferred the vibrating chair. Your first snow cross race was at 45 days old. You know it's just what we do!
So to wrap this up since it has gotten long. You have grown into a big, strong, stubborn child. Much like your mother, you like things your way...PERIOD! You have light brown hair and mommy's blue eyes. A smile that Gammie is right would melt the polar ice caps. When you smile, lights are not required. Love radiates from you. Beware, my little Bennie. Your size will lead you to believe that you can do whatever you want to whoever you want. Please remember your loving nature. When you want to push, hug. When you want to hit, walk away. Please learn from Mommy and Pop, your anger will get the best of you. Remember when you are angry, just because you can get the upper hand it doesn't mean that you should. Some great advice from your Gammie, "It takes a bigger person to walk away". You are a good boy, and you have a great future ahead of you. Mommy loves you!
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