A Baby's Letter to Mommy

This started simply as a letter from a baby, any baby, my baby your baby to mommy, but after the events of Saturday God led the pen down another path.  I read it to mom, she told me to post it through her tears.  I used to write a lot, I think I will start more.

A Baby's Wish Letter:

Mommy today you held me for the first time.  As I saw you this first time ever I had to refocus as my eyes were not quite clear yet.  You were more beautiful than I could have ever imagined.  God told me of the love that I would feel as they placed me in your arms, but when it happened the sensation was overwhelming.  As I looked into your eyes they were filled with tears and the love emoted from every pore in your body.  God was right.  It was worth the wait.  I felt so warm as ou held me tight next to your body.  As you gazed upon me, I did the same to you.  I wanted to take it all in.  So over joyed to finally meet the woman that I would call Mommy.  I couldn't wait to make you proud of me.

When they took me from your arms, I thought no..wait bring me back!  I'm not done yet.  I wanted more.  The love I felt when I was in your arms was so intoxicating.  I never wanted to leave those arms.  I never wanted to be without those eyes watching over me.  You are so perfect, better than anything I had drempt about for all those months.

As time went on the care you took to gently dress and change me.  When you seaddled me for warmth, and when you nursed me and sang to me I knew I had it better than any other baby ever born.  I knew the moment I met you what my purpose on this earth was.  It was to make you proud of me.  I hoped that I could love you as much as you loved me.

Mommy, God has told me that my time here is short.  I need to make the most of ever moment I have with you.  I am not sure of what "time" is yet, but I feel like it means I need to make you proud of me every day.  Today I cood for you.  You smiled and giggled.  I knew that made you happy.  So I had accomplished that goal.

Since I have been sick, I was blessed today with being able to nurse with you.  Oh Mommy, that made me feel like one with you again.  As you gazed at me did you notice me doing the same.  I watched you with intensity.  I never wanted that moment to end.  I hope you felt my love radiating back to you.

Today they took me again.  I wasn't scared because I knew that I would be back with you again shortly.  That I would feel that love again from you.  After I awoke there you were, like the first time I saw you I had to refocus again.  I studied your eyes, your lips, your hair, and your hands.  When you placed your hands on me I felt the love like a warm fleece blanket.  I knew I would loved because God told me.  I just never knew I could love someone as much as I loved you.  It was wonderful having you on one side of me and Christ on the other.  If this is what life is, Ihope every baby is as happy as I am.

Buy Mommy, I hear God calling to me again.  I am not sure what to do.  I love you so much, and I know that you love me.  I am afraid to leave you because I never want you to be sad.  So God said I can have some time alone with you before I go home.  I need that time with you for I need to make sure that I can make you as happy as possible before I go.  So let's go to our home and give Thanks for this time together alone.  Without doctors, nurses, just you and me, daddy and my brother too.

Everytime you hold me I make a mental picture so I won't forget.  My favorite times are when we are alone.  Just you and me.  I am very blessed that I have been given this extra time with you.  Mommy, my wish for you and daddy is to never be sad.  I came here to make you and Daddy happy and proud.    It was my only goal and I hope that God has blessed me with this extra time to accomplish this.

It's time to go now Mommy, but I am not scared.  I know just like before that you are there on one side and God is on the other.  As you hold me now it feels like the first time.  I cherish every extra moment he gives us, so I can watch you and listen to you and study you.  I feel so lucky.  God says that sometimes he cannot gve babies the extra time he has given me.  I feel blessed today to be in your arms and feel so loved.  So many babieswill go through their entire lives not feeling the love I have felt in such a short time together with my mommy.

As I am leaving you this is my wish.  Mommy and Daddy:  I hope I made you proud of me everyday I was here.  I tried so hard.  I want you to be happy, it would hurt me to see you upset or hurt though I know since you love me so much, it will be hard for you right away.  There is God now, he says it's time to come home.  He promises that I can watch over you and comfort you when you are feeling down.  I know it will be hard to start tomorrow without me, but it will be hard for me to miss your embrace and kissed until I get to see you again.  God promises that this day will come when I am reunited with my family and until then I will be with you not in body, but in spirit.  I will watch over my brother and guide him in the righteous path.  When you are sad, just talk to me and I will be in your arms again.

When God calls you, I promise I will be waiting with the same anticipation that I felt as they took me and placed me into your arms.  Mommy and Daddy, I will be there to meet you the day you walk through the gates of Heaven.  So don't fear, until then God will care for me until you can look upon me again with your loving eyes and hold me with your warm embrace.

Until then, Live, Love, Laugh, and Learn with each other.  That is what I WANT FOR YOU.

Until we see each other again.  I love you.
Your Son FOREVER & ALWAYS